For as long as I can remember, I have always had to watch my weight. I’ve never been on of those people who could eat what they want and not have to worry. For me, it’s eat what you want, and you’ll pay for it. Unfortunately, it runs in my family. Aside from my dad, everyone in my immediate family struggles with weight. I grew up watching my mother constantly diet and being frustrated when the results weren’t always the best. Seeing her gain weight, lose weight and gain again, that vicious never-ending yo-yo cycle was not a positive experience. I never wanted that for me, but the reality is that’s exactly what I got.
I could sit here and blame my weight on genetics, busy work schedule, it’s easier to just pick something up rather than cook etc. However, the truth is I have no one to blame but myself. I finally realized if I don’t take accountability for the fact that I have become overweight, I will never fully be able to lose it. The ugly reality it that, I have no one to blame but myself. I sat here and ate badly, didn’t watch portion sizes, found excuses not to workout. No one force fed me or forbade me from exercising. I know I must do these things, yet I found excuses not to do them. Using cop-outs like “oh I work late”, “I need to go shopping” are not real reasons to avoid eating healthy or working out.
The sad truth is I like eating healthy and enjoy exercising. I do feel better at the end of a day when I've cooked a nutritious meal and completed a workout. Yet, over the past few years I’ve just fallen into this lazy unhealthy routine. Trying to get out of this funk hasn’t been the easiest. My mind has gotten used to excuses. But now that will change. I have made a vow to myself to be my best self. I know it will not be easy or fast, but it will happen. Just from changing my mindset, I can already feel myself becoming more positive. I keep focusing on the fact that I can do it, I know I can. This new mindset is exactly what I need to keep going.
I also have to remind myself that it’s a step by step process. Setting unrealistic goals like “I’ll lose 25 lbs. by December” are not helpful. Setting goals like “I’ll cook healthy and try and workout for 30 minutes at least 3 times a week” are much more realistic and manageable. I also have to remember not berate myself if I only get in one workout, just remind myself I did workout. Only positive thoughts and vibes will keep me motivated. I know it will not happen overnight, but I am determined to do my best. It will be an adventure, but it’s one I am thoroughly looking forward to.